When Parenting is Just HARD....
It's not for the faint of heart. That's for sure! Parenting. At 23 I wanted so desperately to be a mom. At 26 the LORD gave me that desire. AND I AM SO THANKFUL HE DID. But when I anticipated a child, I didn't anticipate that parenting would be so hard. I knew there would be sleepless nights. I knew there would be moments when I would hurt for my kids. What I didn't anticipate was the constant tug of my heart and mind. Every second guessing every decision, every action, every word. Have I made the right choices? Have I done right by them? Have I said what I should to them?
My head knows the answer to that question: No and Yes. I am not perfect by any means. I have never claimed to be and I'll be the first to own my sin. Yet, I hold as tight as I can to the grace that has been given me. I hold tight to the ONE who holds tight, not just to me, but to my children.
I just received another anonymous email. I don't know why this person is so bent on criticizing my mothering. When I read it, I know it's a lie. But the enemy uses it to try and create guilt in me over not being a better parent.
So, when I am already in a hard parenting season. When I am already critiquing myself over the last 17 years. When I am already judging all that I should have done different. Someone else telling me that my "parenting skills are like that of a welfare ghetto queen" --- not really what my soul needed to hear today.
I choose to listen to a wiser voice.
I choose to focus on the written truth.
I choose to hold firm to...
My head knows the answer to that question: No and Yes. I am not perfect by any means. I have never claimed to be and I'll be the first to own my sin. Yet, I hold as tight as I can to the grace that has been given me. I hold tight to the ONE who holds tight, not just to me, but to my children.
I just received another anonymous email. I don't know why this person is so bent on criticizing my mothering. When I read it, I know it's a lie. But the enemy uses it to try and create guilt in me over not being a better parent.
So, when I am already in a hard parenting season. When I am already critiquing myself over the last 17 years. When I am already judging all that I should have done different. Someone else telling me that my "parenting skills are like that of a welfare ghetto queen" --- not really what my soul needed to hear today.
I choose to listen to a wiser voice.
I choose to focus on the written truth.
I choose to hold firm to...
"Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you (me and my children) will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Phil 1:6
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